In this timeframe (Feb 14 2020 — June 15th 2020), my material plane experiences (material lagna chart) the wisdom (Jupiter) of learning from (9th-to-sub-bhukti-dasha-lord + Jupiter drishti) the pain (Rahu) of 2016 (the bhukti dasha prior to Jupiter, ie Mercury-Rahu time period), pain caused by the ambition (Rahu) of modern electric buzzy music networks (Rahu co-lord of the 11th house where Mercury and Moon reside, himself residing in Mercury’s 3rd house and sign of Gemini) and romance (5th-from-Moon) and ultimate downfall (Rahu). The final sub-bhukti dasha period will always be one of closure, so this is the end of my Jupiterian experience, where I seek to heal physically and generally from the trauma of the previous bhukti lord’s dasha (Mercury-Rahu), though with an increase in writing (3rd house + Jupiter + Rahu) and media creation (5th-from-Moon).
My emotional plane experiences the longing for children (Jupiter karaka for children, Rahu in 5th [swabhava of children and creation]-from-moon) and the pleasure of creating Gemini and Gemini-owner-in-11th communications and especially those for the masses type things, using her hands a lot (typing, fine detail of artwork, electronic futery gadgetry), writing (Gemini) about learning (Jupiter and 9th angle), women in recovery (Rahu in Navamsha 6th Taurus). It is also the period of emotional healing (i.e. the final sub-bhukti dasha period is always one of forgiveness, plus the 9th angles, plus Jupiter, plus cause of suffering = Rahu) and letting-go of the source of pain (Rahu’s placements). Jupiter bhukti lord saved Rahu for last, knowing that the previous dasha, Mercury-Rahu, was one of the most traumatizing since Saturn-Ketu age 10.
The longing for children, together with Rahu’s Navamsha plane placement (6th house Taurus), taking place after the transformative of Jupiter-Mars period (abdominal surgery on my uterus and organs to help remove endometriosis that was preventing fertility — Mars the surgeon’s sword-like utensils in my 8th-from-Moon shocking transformations and in Virgo of medicine), all suggests that this is a period where my body is healing the old hormonal fertility issues, resetting its hormonal rhythms, in order to provide me with children.
The primary confusion I have is whether conception has to happen in this dasha, or while Rahu is still transiting my natal Rahu, or both? Like everything, who knows (maybe Barbara). Only yesterday I learned that I was wrong about Saturn in Chitra Nakshatra promising infertility in a woman: that is only the case if the woman has this Nakshatra rising, which I do not have! Saturn in Chitra is in my 6th house Virgo yuti Mangala.
So, we are humble in our study, and open to what comes, because it is ordained that way. We get dealt with something, we accept it, surrendering to God, ok, this too. But what we think may not be how it is anyway, and there is the space of encountering god, faith even in the unknown. Staring out the window for three months since January 31st, watching nothing but the world (“nothing”!), wondering why all this, why this suffering, why the fertility period during isolation, why that — that is the time of encountering nothingness, godlessness, emptiness. When there’s nothing listening, when we are alone with our aloneness, which are always anyway, that is when we have faith; faith that we might not be right, faith that this is one of many experiences in a full spectrum of experience as we know it from this planet and time.
Wish I could help my former teacher to see the lessons he isn’t seeing that his chart asks him to see: learn from women. Yes they are shocking you, surrender to that shock, transform, learn from women across this 3rd house media and karma. Admit your errors, give up your ego, transform, Venus 8th from Moon, in 3rd house Capricorn, listen to women in your field of media! Listen. Let go of manliness. Stop seeking brotherly connection from a woman’s friends to undermine her sovereignty. Stop harming women. You were wrong. Let go of kingdom, anger, control, rage, it’s false. You cannot control her. You cannot possess someone. She does not want you, does not think about you, and is not trying to ruin your career. She did not cheat on you. She is healing from now a new trauma on top of the old, leave her to that and carry on your own life. An Indian Brahman War King you may be in this life, but not in the next, it’s an identity you long for, but it’s just an identity, sharing a world of identities, each of whom have every right to be here in the fullness of their spirit. You told my ex that I would receive my karma, which is incredibly cruel, because I did nothing wrong. Your rigid belief that I did, is all in your mind. I know what I did, I know how I felt, I know what I thought, and I did nothing wrong. I will not be ashamed of speaking to any male friend, and it is not my responsibility should a male friend like me. You have no right over my desires, opinions, etc. Should you continue to write to my friends and places of work, I will file the police report I have prepared demanding that you stop harassing and stalking me. This all began on the day of your Saturn-Venus dasha, you created this and are creating more pain and karma, all in the name of your ego and fragile male sense of fear of women.
It’s funny this period would have, I would have thought, brought back a lot of friends (3rd house), but in truth it has been one that has been spent entirely isolated and alone, as I was on bedrest for 8 weeks, do not expect friends to dote on me all the time, then was hit with the pandemic. So that is not something I could have foreseen, although I did talk with Barbara about Mangala and Ketu in Mula before it happened. I would have expected many (Jupiter) small groups of friends (3rd house), yet I don’t feel the longing for that (Rahu). I don’t even feel the longing for children (5th-from-Moon). Perhaps that is the wisdom (Jupiter + 9th angle), something I suspected months ago about Rahu, the source of so much of my pain and trauma. When we have a Rahu dasha of any length of time, I believe it is best for us to avoid biting his hook. We should reign him in, and not answer the call of longing. I am quite happy in this isolation, with my meditation, reading, sleeping, staring at the sky, a whole lot of nothing, yet my body is busy at work resetting from decades of hormonal irregularities. It is a peaceful time. I barely talk to anyone, or see anyone, and it has been a blessed experience. While the world was still busy running here and there I sat in my chair, pelvis inflamed and sick, rigid, rotten, unable to move, listening to the sounds of the day, the night, encountering the question of godlessness, meaningless, nothingness, faith, beyond this life, beyond the known universe, knowing that I am ultimately alone in this world, as we all are, unseen, unheard, all just mirrors for other people’s projections. But for God, perhaps, should that divinity, the power beyond my eternal power, the multitude of powers, the source of light energy, of matter, the atom, electricity, force, be known.
I’ll give up astrology soon, I have seen enough.
